The Crow

"If you can't change the environment, Change yourself. "

Its a story of a crow trying to move to different places because nobody likes it.
However, it doesn't realize the main problem is its voice.

I think that is one of the main challenge faced after we left our own society that we seems to fit well, and live in a different place.

We can either ignore the environment and people and do it our way, being a 'recluse'; or sing along and celebrate with the people and 'change' ourselves. It is easy to see here when there are a few people who don't mix with the staffs to have lunch in the canteen and stroll in the hypermarkets and Starbucks, where some follow the unspoken rule of "no business during lunch", talking about topics from dirty jokes to the weather of the day in their lunch seat.

I salude a Taiwanese social commenter/"wise man" Li Ao( 李敖) who has so much faith in the things he believe that he is imune to the environment around him. He is one of the few that manage to pull it off and get his political ideas through even he is the oddest of his people. Yet how many people have the assets to do that?

First of all, you need to bear the hate of many, you need to have rivals, including the powerful people too. You need to speak of the ugly reality where everyone else still believe that the world is beautiful. Before the truth is yet to be revealed or proven, you are on your own with no friends, facing all the mental 'defeats'.

Only a person with a high EQ can translate the negative emotions to positive and continue to fight. In Li Ao's memoir, he mentioned: 'I am one among the 4000 illiterates, therefore I am still manage to influence my environment,but in this era, its hard to persuade people to listen because most people are 'educated'. However the most knowledgeable person will never step foot in politics, their primary choice would be the finance and commerce, the source of wealth, only then politics, therefore there are not many smart people in politics '

To make a statement as this, pinning all politicians are not the smartest people, and still jokes after it, who would have such guts now?

A smaller scale to the environment that I am currently in: People got married in young age, have many kids, works in the same area they live in for as many years as they can; The tea seller next store is there for 20 years; the teachers who work in the kindergarten I teach have been there for 30 and 15 years respectedly... In the nutshell, they are all depending on each other. All the relationships among the people are somehow connected through different stories for decades that is is really hard to "Tear down their faces", meaning have a real fight/disagreement. It is like not caring about their 20 years relationship.

Therefore, one of their favourite slogans is "Zhai yen yen", meaning "heart cold cold", not to argue, wait if you can, as long as you can, don't get angry easily, your heart is supposed to be cold, even the ants are burning at the top of the pot..
As many may know, I am a fast temper and a fan of efficiency, ....so you can imagine...

Another note about my current environment, Gossips. It can be about anything, but it spreads like a thunder. At first it was crazy to understand why the news of me drinking a can of beer during lunch ( alone in a stall) is then 'Questioned' by my boss right after lunch; Only then i realize two of them know each other for more than ten years, and she has breakfast every morning in her stall...

I used to be angry, ( cause of my overheated heart) until yesterday, as I "complaint" about the recent gossip about me with my favourite security guard from Mercy, He said: " Si Jie, You need to understand, our work is the same , its repeated, its boring, its the same people, same faces, over the years,more than your age, we can't talk about serious stuff, there are too much Do's and Don'ts except gossips, its our only entertainment....

Reason accepted, for now...